Its not the first time its happened, but i suppose its the first time i am discussing it.

i will always do what Master asks, but does that mean i have to like it? i always tell Him, sometimes its very good thing that we are further apart. If He only knew how many times i swear under my breath or roll my eyes. i should really control that better one of these days.

Anyway, He's given me an order for Saturday night and i'm not overly thrilled with it. Will i do it, absolutely! Will i not like it, yup!

Is it okay for me to have these feelings as His submissive? Do i just compartmentalize these thoughts into the you are not allowed to think like this file? Do i have to like everything He makes me do? i don't know. i guess i should look into that. i never want to disappoint Him. Would making me think like this do that?

So let me tell you what He wants me to do before i discuss something else. i am to wear my plug from 5pm Saturday until Sunday when i wake. He's allowed me to go out Saturday night, but of course the plug will be there. And of course my mind will be completely on Him and the plug instead of what i am doing and who i am with, which i am sure that is exactly how He wants it. Well played Master ;)! (i know He's not playing a game - just thought it would be cute to say that)

Initially He was not going to allow me to go out on Saturday night. He wanted me to be home alone. i am alone a lot and want to take every opportunity to go out when i can. My schedule is very restricted. i wanted to go out. He said no. i wasn't happy about it, but would have done it because it is what He wanted.

So, perhaps it is okay for me not to be happy about what He decides because after all, it's not about me, its about Him. And i will continue to do what He asks, tells or demands no matter what. i am His.